I know what it feels like to hold everything together on the outside while something quietly falls apart underneath.

For over two decades I've been working in advertising, producing global campaigns, travelling the world and living the culture that came with it. The industry ran on connection, and connection ran on alcohol. From the outside my life looked like everything it was supposed to be. Inside I was flat, foggy and completely lost.

Alcohol was part of the industry, and it was part of my identity. I didn't know where one ended and the other began.

I stopped drinking at 36, almost 7 years ago. Not because of a dramatic rock bottom. Not because of a hospital or a public disaster. Just a morning where I woke up and knew, finally, that I couldn't keep living like this.

But stopping wasn't the freedom I expected. For years afterwards I was still performing. Still searching. Still trying to work out who I actually was underneath it all - I'd just swapped one mask for another. Controlled instead of chaotic.

Disciplined instead of out of control. Still not quite me, just sober.

The shift came when someone asked me a question that stopped me completely:

What's the mask you're wearing? And what is it costing you?

That question changed everything.

I created Sober Curious Reset because this space didn't exist when I needed it. Not a clinical program. Not a detox. Just a safe, honest place for women who are quietly questioning and ready to look at what's underneath.

This is a peer-led space based on lived experience. It is not therapy or medical treatment. If you're experiencing alcohol dependency or need clinical support, we encourage you to seek help from a qualified professional.

Susannah has completed training in Motivational Interviewing through the Association for Psychological Therapies.